This blog has been a rainbow of gay and yet somehow with all my references to Madonna and Project Runway I've overlooked the gayest thing of all: literature! Well, that's a crying shame, so I ask for your forgiveness with these words from James Baldwin's novel, Go Tell it On the Mountain:
"But to look back from the stony plain along the road which led one to that place is not at all the same thing as walking on the road; the perspective to say the very least, changes only with the journey; only when the road has, all abruptly and treacherously, and with an absoluteness that permits no argument, turned or dropped or risen is one able to see all that one could not have seen from any other place."
I love this quote, its packed metaphor really speaks to me and the journey I've taken. If nothing else, I've learned during this process that my perspective has evolved (and devolved for that matter). I guess in the end, though, it's pretty much all revolved around me, taken from my vantage point along the many stumbles, peaks, and valleys. I'm satisfied with the journey and am grateful for the forced reflection, an activity, which I hope to find replicated often in business school.
So where am I at? Well, I attended a Yale soiree last night, and I have to admit: preceding the event, I was stricken with major jitters. What if Yale didn't measure up? What if my gut was leading me astray? I have noticed I am constantly hoping Yale wins, which is probably laden with a psychological landmine of unconscious wish fulfillment...
Well, Yale did measure up, that's for sure. The event featured a panel of SOM alumni speaking on the impact of globalization on their careers and offering advice to those seeking careers in a global economy. Their words wavered from wise and intellectual to banal and cautious, but my overall feelings were incredibly positive. I topped off the night meeting my biggest fan (haha, just kidding, Dhokie, but you probably could've guessed I'd take a jab at you).
But all jokes aside, it was really easy engaging with current students, admitted students, and alumni alike. I've been commenting when people ask if I've decided that in many ways it's a horse race between Yale and Kellogg. Yale took an early lead and continues to race on. Kellogg has a lot of catching up to do, but, I'm wary of jumping to a decision before weighing the options completely. So over the next month I'll be putting myself out there, speaking to as many alumni and current students as I can before finalizing my decision. Next week I have a Kellogg event here in San Francisco with other prospective admits, and I look forward to walking away with greater clarity or exacerbated anxiety.
The weather's good up here on the top of this mountain. I can see various destinations ahead of me, where before all I saw were insurmountable cliffs. Now all that's left is choosing which path to take down.